Weightless ⁠♡

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  I stepped out of myself today. I just stood there, a silent ghost, watching my own body move through the heavy ache of living. It broke something inside my mind to see it from the outside to look into my own eyes and feel the absolute, hollow emptiness staring back. I used to hold onto things. I used to have hope. But I watched it drain out of me, until there was nothing left but space. I am so light now. So fragile, like dry autumn leaves. If the wind were to catch me right now, it would carry me away, drift me across the sky, and drop me somewhere so far down that I would never, ever want to come back. There is a strange regret in being this hollow. I watched my body beg for sleep, pleading for the dark to just turn off the noise. But sleep is no longer a requirement for this life. The clock keeps ticking, but the rest never comes. So I roamed. Endless, heavy nights, walking side by side with my lover. Dark after dark, two shadows chasing a phantom. We were hunting for hope, bu...
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How I Survived My Soft Girl Academic Breakdown After Getting 2%

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 I am mentally traumatized๐Ÿ˜ซ. Emotionally confused๐Ÿ˜ฃ๐Ÿ’”. Spiritually cracking like a beautifully fragile glass๐Ÿท๐Ÿ’”

Today, I feel like screaming my lungs out into a void ๐Ÿ‘️๐Ÿ‘️. Why??!!. Because I got 2%. Two๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ’”

Oh, the horror ๐Ÿคง. The disrespect ๐Ÿ˜ญ. The tragedy of my soft little academic ego ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ’”.

In all my 3.5 years of studenting, I have never seen such disgrace ๐Ÿคง. This paper slapped me across the face with a cold ink that said "2"๐Ÿ˜ต

I'm officially in my soft gurl academic breakdown ๐Ÿ˜ช๐Ÿค๐Ÿซฃ๐Ÿ–ค.

I just want to lie down with some chilled pineapple ๐Ÿ, stare at the ceiling and mourn ๐Ÿ˜“. 

Mourn what exactly ๐Ÿค”...I don't even know ๐Ÿ˜ซ.... just everything ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ’”.

Maybe this is one of those times where a lesson is learnt somewhere ๐Ÿคง. 

They say failure is a bruise not a tattoo ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ’”.

Maybe I'm overreacting a lil ๐Ÿ–️๐ŸŒš.

I need this ๐Ÿ˜ซ, I want to scream into a pillow and shout for the angels to hear my whispered tears๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ’”.

Could this be my fault ๐Ÿ‘€?! Probably ๐Ÿคง

Everyone is dissing the lecturer though ๐Ÿฅน, maybe I should join them ๐Ÿ˜ถ‍๐ŸŒซ. 

Buh even though I'm shocked and in pain, I believe disrespecting someone won't bring any healing๐Ÿคž๐ŸคŽ.

 It's just noise ๐Ÿ—ฃ️๐Ÿ’”..... unnecessary noise to be precise ๐Ÿ˜‘๐Ÿ—ฃ️๐Ÿ’”.

And the truth is, I'll forget about this before tomorrow ๐ŸŒš๐Ÿ’…. Though I got 2%๐Ÿฅน, I'm dramatically okay with it ๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿ’•. 

I'm cracking like glass, but healing like gold ๐Ÿคญ๐Ÿช™. 

Because setbacks are not full stops, they're commas✅๐Ÿ’•

2% Bruised Me....Not Broke Me๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’—

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  1. LilaMay 12, 2025 at 4:02 PM

    This is wonderful.
    I admire the fact that you didn't let the 2% define you. Keep up the good work.

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    1. edidi ♡May 13, 2025 at 12:09 AM

      Aww thank you ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿ˜‚❤️
      It's just one failure closer to success ๐Ÿ˜š๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿ’•

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