I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...
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I Am Just A Girl ♡

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 I’m just a girl. A girl who dreams, who screenshots dresses she can’t afford yet🤧, 

who wishes her life looked like her Pinterest board❤️‍🩹. 

A girl who prays for better days and sometimes thinks the universe is taking too long🥲❤️‍🩹.

But here’s what I’m learning: wishing is pretty, but work is powerful.

 The life I want isn’t waiting at the end of a shooting star, it’s hidden in the little things I do daily🥰💖. 

The discipline. The risks. The showing up when it feels awkward👀❤️‍🩹.

I’m just a girl, but I refuse to be ‘just.’ I refuse to live only in daydreams🫠.

 I want my reality to catch up to my imagination. So I don’t just wish for it I work for it🤧.

And maybe one day, I’ll look back and realize the girl who once only wished… actually built the life she prayed for. Piece by piece, softly but surely.😚😊💖

#xoxo💋🎀💖 #babysteps🎀 #deluluvibs❤️

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