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I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...
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Hello ๐Ÿฆ‹✨

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 It's been a while since I posted here ๐Ÿฅน♥️ I love this space so much ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿ’– ...xoxo ๐Ÿ’•
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8th June >>> My Life Changing testimony ๐Ÿฅน❤️

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Gosh ๐Ÿฅฒ๐Ÿ’” Today I can proudly say ..... " My life has changed ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿฅฐ❤️" I can sleep and know that ....I am finally at peace  I can eat and know that....I can finally eat  I can think without.... stressing my mind ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’” I don't know where to start, I don't know where to end...cuz like I spent 3 yrs in pain and sadness and yesterday....I stood my ground and I can proudly say "it is done ๐Ÿ˜ญ‼️" I am finally free, but these 3 yrs has shaped my life, mindset and spirit ๐Ÿค I am free, I am not longer caged... ๐ŸŽ€ I am free ๐Ÿชฝ✨
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Weightless ⁠♡

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  I stepped out of myself today. I just stood there, a silent ghost, watching my own body move through the heavy ache of living. It broke something inside my mind to see it from the outside to look into my own eyes and feel the absolute, hollow emptiness staring back. I used to hold onto things. I used to have hope. But I watched it drain out of me, until there was nothing left but space. I am so light now. So fragile, like dry autumn leaves. If the wind were to catch me right now, it would carry me away, drift me across the sky, and drop me somewhere so far down that I would never, ever want to come back. There is a strange regret in being this hollow. I watched my body beg for sleep, pleading for the dark to just turn off the noise. But sleep is no longer a requirement for this life. The clock keeps ticking, but the rest never comes. So I roamed. Endless, heavy nights, walking side by side with my lover. Dark after dark, two shadows chasing a phantom. We were hunting for hope, bu...
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