I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...
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How Gratitude and Love Help Me Through the Hard Days

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 Lately, I’ve just been thinking…  

Despite all the pain we go through💔, life is still full of little moments of overcoming❤️‍🩹.

Yes, we hurt😢💔  

We feel frustrated😞💔

We feel anxious😣💔 

We get disappointed🫠💔

And honestly, sometimes it feels like all we do is feel and nothing changes🫠.

But the truth is — sitting in those feelings doesn’t fix anything.  

And don’t get me wrong, those emotions are valid and real. I feel them too🥹❤️‍🩹

But when it all gets too much, I’ve learned something that helps:  

gratitude💝

Not the fake kind, not the “just be positive👀” stuff — I mean real, soft gratitude🥺💝

Like taking a moment to breathe and say… "Even if nothing is going right, this one thing🥺, this one person🥺, this one blessing🥺... is still here🥹❤️."

 When I feel like breaking down, I think of that one person in my life who sees me❤️‍🔥.  

They show up for me🥺.  

They care when I don’t even know how to ask🥺.  

They think about my happiness in ways that melt my heart🥺They love parts of me I thought were invisible🥺❤️  

And honestly? That’s everything😊💖.

It’s in those moments that I remember — no matter the pain🥺, love always finds a way to show up🫀❣️  

So yes, we suffer🥲. But we also receive🫂💕.  

And sometimes, the very thing keeping us going… is just knowing someone truly loves us through the chaos🥰❤️‍🔥.

To that angel in my life — thank you🫂. I see you🥹. I feel you. I love you🥺❤️.

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  1. Sun GodMay 25, 2025 at 11:09 AM

    My love😭🤲🫶❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

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    1. edidi ♡May 25, 2025 at 11:59 AM

      I don't even know how to respond 😂😂🤗❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

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