Weightless ⁠♡

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  I stepped out of myself today. I just stood there, a silent ghost, watching my own body move through the heavy ache of living. It broke something inside my mind to see it from the outside to look into my own eyes and feel the absolute, hollow emptiness staring back. I used to hold onto things. I used to have hope. But I watched it drain out of me, until there was nothing left but space. I am so light now. So fragile, like dry autumn leaves. If the wind were to catch me right now, it would carry me away, drift me across the sky, and drop me somewhere so far down that I would never, ever want to come back. There is a strange regret in being this hollow. I watched my body beg for sleep, pleading for the dark to just turn off the noise. But sleep is no longer a requirement for this life. The clock keeps ticking, but the rest never comes. So I roamed. Endless, heavy nights, walking side by side with my lover. Dark after dark, two shadows chasing a phantom. We were hunting for hope, bu...
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When Death Passed By Our Door

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Welcome to Gurlfriend Ruls
 where real thoughts meets real change ☕๐Ÿ’•



So I've started a new blog at ๐ŸŽ€ Gurlfriend Ruls ❤️ ๐Ÿฅน❤️

I want to educate, inform, advice and inspire all the overwhelmed girlies going through a lot in life ☹️๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ’”....all my girlies who are tired of surface level advice ☹️๐Ÿซ ๐Ÿ’”

Cuz honestly speaking, I have been really traumatized since last year....I have experienced so much hurt and pain that it has honestly affected me ๐Ÿซ ❤️‍๐Ÿฉน


Cuz if you honestly read my blog posts....they are really really sad and depressing ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿคง❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

I'm not proud of it but like I am ๐Ÿ˜ญ❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

I do have happy days and a lot of sad days ๐Ÿ˜ญ❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

So yh I've been busy with my new blog ๐Ÿฅน❤️

Trying to tweak and work it out ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿฅฐ❤️

It's live so you can check it out ๐Ÿฅณ๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿ’–


So today 10 March, 2026 has been one of my worst days ๐Ÿ’”

I wish today didn't happen and I would never in my life, want to re live today ๐Ÿ’”

So my dad would have died hours before I woke up....he was attacked by robbers with a man literally chasing him with a cutlass ๐Ÿ’”


Death was staring at him in the eyes and God being soooo good, he escaped ๐Ÿ™❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

But it's honestly sad though, to think that the world has gotten this dark ๐Ÿ’”


He just wanted to go to work and come back....but sadly such a terrible tragedy happened to him ๐Ÿ’”

I honestly wouldn't know what I would have done ๐Ÿซ ๐Ÿ’”

May God honestly bless him, protect and guide him ๐Ÿซ ๐Ÿ’”

I love him so much and I wouldn't want anything to happen to him

God help us ๐Ÿ™✝️๐Ÿ’™

And today my mind wandered to the edge of the map… the kind of place where a person just wants to disappear for a while ๐Ÿ’”

I even packed a few things into my bag as if I was ready to walk away from everything that has been weighing on my chest ๐Ÿฅ€

I am honestly fed up with my living situation ๐Ÿ’”

Sometimes it feels like I'm trapped between four walls that echo more pain than peace ๐Ÿ–ค

I honestly hate it and I don't care if they see this post ๐Ÿ’”

I regret ever crossing paths with certain people in that space ๐Ÿ’”

There are days I lose my appetite completely because my heart is heavier than my stomach ๐Ÿฅ€

I don't want to say too much… but there are moments when a person just wants fresh air, open roads, and distance from the storms that live inside a house ๐Ÿ–ค

God give me strength to overcome everything ❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

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