Weightless ⁠♡

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  I stepped out of myself today. I just stood there, a silent ghost, watching my own body move through the heavy ache of living. It broke something inside my mind to see it from the outside to look into my own eyes and feel the absolute, hollow emptiness staring back. I used to hold onto things. I used to have hope. But I watched it drain out of me, until there was nothing left but space. I am so light now. So fragile, like dry autumn leaves. If the wind were to catch me right now, it would carry me away, drift me across the sky, and drop me somewhere so far down that I would never, ever want to come back. There is a strange regret in being this hollow. I watched my body beg for sleep, pleading for the dark to just turn off the noise. But sleep is no longer a requirement for this life. The clock keeps ticking, but the rest never comes. So I roamed. Endless, heavy nights, walking side by side with my lover. Dark after dark, two shadows chasing a phantom. We were hunting for hope, bu...

I'm Done Oversharing

 


I want to be alone...I want to isolate myself from everything

I'm tired... I'm sad... I'm overwhelmed.... I'm depressed ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

Right now my life feels sooo heavy, I don't know what to do ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

Whether I look left or right....up or down, help isn't coming from anywhere ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I have prayed, wished, starved, hoped for just a little glimpse of freedom and reassurance ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I have over shared my problems and situation with sooo many ppl and now I regret it ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

At the end of the day, I just lay down in bed with my pillow soaking up my endless tears.... I'm tired...I gave myself that opportunity to over share and in the end, ppl are finding me difficult and I just sound like I'm nagging ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

The ones closest to my heart that I never thought would turn s complete blind eye on me...have locked their doors on me and all they do is gossip about me ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

Why ???!!!

I blame myself for everything... cuz I am facing the circumstances of my actions ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

Circumstances has led me to where I am today ๐Ÿฅ€❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

I don't want to be with anyone...I don't want to speak or pour out my heart to anyone cuz I've done that a billion times and in the end... nothing came out of it

So I have decided to set the right boundaries ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

To cut off ppl for good ๐Ÿฅ€

To isolate myself coz it's not like they care ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

It's my life and the hurt and anguish I'm going through no one sees them or feels them because everyone has a problem of their own ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”... and I understand and respect that ❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

I have been traumatized and I have experienced stuff too early in my life ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”...I am tired and fed up ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

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