I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...
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My only prayer...23:30pm...22.jan..2026

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 Tonight I lay here with so much pain and anguish in my heart πŸ₯€πŸ’”

I'm so overwhelmed with anger, hopelessness and sadness πŸ₯€πŸ’”

Where is the God who draws nearer in your most darkest night???

Where is the almighty merciful God???

Is there even God???

Cuz I'm tired!!!

I'm sad!!!!

I'm overwhelmed!!!!!

I can do nothing but cry till my tears run dry and blood overflows πŸ₯€πŸ’”

I am hurting but there's no God or no one to save me, I'm tired of this life πŸ₯€πŸ’”

I do not want to chained down to live a life forced on me, because that's how someone else lived before me πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”

Why am I the only one hurting when I know you'll never let others go through my pain !?

You have neglected me and prioritized yourself and others before me πŸ₯€πŸ’”

Such selfish people πŸ₯€πŸ’”

I have done nothing but to love, respect and honor you so much πŸ₯€πŸ’”

I just want to be worthy of your love and care and is that so much to ask????

Why are you doing this me?? πŸ₯€πŸ’”

I cry myself to sleep everyday knowing you have made up your mind to ignore me?

Why are you so bias!!

I just want to live like everyone else πŸ₯€πŸ’”

If you wouldn't let me live my life, let me go and allow me to suffer and figure it out myself πŸ₯€πŸ’”

I don't want to be caged in a dungeon where I'm not even regarded as a human being πŸ₯€πŸ’”

I can not even cry because you shut me down so others wouldn't know my pain πŸ₯€πŸ’”

I am tired of hoping the ones dear to my heart would open their hearts an inch to see an inch of my pain πŸ₯€πŸ’”

I'm pleading and I'm begging please, save me and care for me for i wasn't asked to be born 

I'm pleading with my hollow bones and soul if there truly is a God I serve, I just ask of you this one thing πŸ₯€πŸ’”

And I promise never to ask of anything again πŸ₯€πŸ’”

I don't deserve this and you know it so why do I go through this pain please, give them empathy and sympathy for I am just a mere child, let them see my pain please....let them free meπŸ₯€πŸ’”

That is all I ask of God πŸ₯€πŸ’”

There is so much more to life than my problems and I do not want to end my life before I experience them all πŸ₯€πŸ’”


I want to live freely please πŸ₯€πŸ’”

I am tired and my soul is no more πŸ₯€πŸ’”

Please

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