Weightless ⁠♡

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  I stepped out of myself today. I just stood there, a silent ghost, watching my own body move through the heavy ache of living. It broke something inside my mind to see it from the outside to look into my own eyes and feel the absolute, hollow emptiness staring back. I used to hold onto things. I used to have hope. But I watched it drain out of me, until there was nothing left but space. I am so light now. So fragile, like dry autumn leaves. If the wind were to catch me right now, it would carry me away, drift me across the sky, and drop me somewhere so far down that I would never, ever want to come back. There is a strange regret in being this hollow. I watched my body beg for sleep, pleading for the dark to just turn off the noise. But sleep is no longer a requirement for this life. The clock keeps ticking, but the rest never comes. So I roamed. Endless, heavy nights, walking side by side with my lover. Dark after dark, two shadows chasing a phantom. We were hunting for hope, bu...
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My only prayer...23:30pm...22.jan..2026

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 Tonight I lay here with so much pain and anguish in my heart ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I'm so overwhelmed with anger, hopelessness and sadness ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

Where is the God who draws nearer in your most darkest night???

Where is the almighty merciful God???

Is there even God???

Cuz I'm tired!!!

I'm sad!!!!

I'm overwhelmed!!!!!

I can do nothing but cry till my tears run dry and blood overflows ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I am hurting but there's no God or no one to save me, I'm tired of this life ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I do not want to chained down to live a life forced on me, because that's how someone else lived before me ๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ’”

Why am I the only one hurting when I know you'll never let others go through my pain !?

You have neglected me and prioritized yourself and others before me ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

Such selfish people ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I have done nothing but to love, respect and honor you so much ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I just want to be worthy of your love and care and is that so much to ask????

Why are you doing this me?? ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I cry myself to sleep everyday knowing you have made up your mind to ignore me?

Why are you so bias!!

I just want to live like everyone else ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

If you wouldn't let me live my life, let me go and allow me to suffer and figure it out myself ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I don't want to be caged in a dungeon where I'm not even regarded as a human being ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I can not even cry because you shut me down so others wouldn't know my pain ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I am tired of hoping the ones dear to my heart would open their hearts an inch to see an inch of my pain ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I'm pleading and I'm begging please, save me and care for me for i wasn't asked to be born 

I'm pleading with my hollow bones and soul if there truly is a God I serve, I just ask of you this one thing ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

And I promise never to ask of anything again ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I don't deserve this and you know it so why do I go through this pain please, give them empathy and sympathy for I am just a mere child, let them see my pain please....let them free me๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

That is all I ask of God ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

There is so much more to life than my problems and I do not want to end my life before I experience them all ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”


I want to live freely please ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I am tired and my soul is no more ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

Please

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