Weightless ⁠♡

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  I stepped out of myself today. I just stood there, a silent ghost, watching my own body move through the heavy ache of living. It broke something inside my mind to see it from the outside to look into my own eyes and feel the absolute, hollow emptiness staring back. I used to hold onto things. I used to have hope. But I watched it drain out of me, until there was nothing left but space. I am so light now. So fragile, like dry autumn leaves. If the wind were to catch me right now, it would carry me away, drift me across the sky, and drop me somewhere so far down that I would never, ever want to come back. There is a strange regret in being this hollow. I watched my body beg for sleep, pleading for the dark to just turn off the noise. But sleep is no longer a requirement for this life. The clock keeps ticking, but the rest never comes. So I roamed. Endless, heavy nights, walking side by side with my lover. Dark after dark, two shadows chasing a phantom. We were hunting for hope, bu...
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๐ŸŒธ Carefree, Confused & Still Dreaming ๐ŸŒธ

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Okay so I’m going to be carefree and blaaaaahh ๐Ÿ˜Œ๐Ÿฅด๐Ÿคช๐Ÿ˜œ๐Ÿ˜ช๐Ÿ˜ด๐Ÿ’”

Because honestly… I don’t even know how I’m feeling ๐Ÿ‘€❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

I feel better today though, so I’m here to spill ๐Ÿข๐Ÿ’•

I’m a weird dreamer with a wild imagination, always wanting to try new things ๐Ÿ˜Œ❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

But life is ugh ๐Ÿ˜’ sometimes ๐Ÿšฎ

I really love talking. And writing. And rambling non-stop ╰⁠(⁠⁠´⁠︶⁠`⁠⁠)⁠╯✨

Anyone who truly knows me knows I’ve always had this one big book the kind I design and fill with thoughts, lessons, quotes… not stories, just me (⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠)⁠♡

But here’s the plot twist: I’m an introvert ๐Ÿคง❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

A serious one.

I can talk to you nonstop for a week, then suddenly go quiet ๐Ÿซ 

Not because I don’t care. Not because I don’t want to talk.

I genuinely don’t know why ส•⁠·⁠แดฅ⁠·⁠ส”❤️

And the worst part?

The longer the silence lasts, the heavier it feels… until reaching out feels awkward and cringe for me ๐Ÿ˜ต‍๐Ÿ’ซ

So I overthink. And spiral. And blah blah blah ๐Ÿฅด❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

So why am I writing this post (⁠￣⁠(⁠๏ฝด⁠)⁠￣⁠)⁠๏พ‰❤️

Because once something is on the internet, it stays there ๐Ÿ˜Œ❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

And maybe one day when I’m not around (this is not a suicide note, please ๐Ÿ˜ I’m just making a point ๐Ÿ˜‘) my thoughts might still exist ส•⁠·⁠แดฅ⁠·⁠ส”

I want my silly thoughts to be remembered ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿคญ❤️

I actually started a podcast last year on Spotify called My Rules as a GURLFRIEND.

Like most podcasters, I posted a few episodes… then disappeared ๐Ÿ˜—๐Ÿ‘‰๐Ÿ‘ˆ๐Ÿค

It’s still there just another abandoned podcast floating in the universe ๐Ÿคง๐Ÿ’”

But I learned from it.

I was trying to fit into a niche everyone else was doing.

This time, I just want to be me sharing random, unfiltered thoughts and helping people (guys, gals, and all 100+ genders ๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿฝ) get 1% better every day ๐Ÿ˜Œ❤️

So yes… I’m starting again๐Ÿซฃ❤️

For real this time ๐Ÿฅณ๐Ÿ“ข๐ŸŽŠ๐ŸŽ‰

I’ve created a YouTube channel, but I haven’t posted yet.

No camera. My phone camera quality is seriously bad๐Ÿ˜❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

Still before this year ends, I will launch my YouTube podcast ☕๐Ÿ’•

I want to be seriously realistic though ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿคฒ❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

My goal is 20 subscribers before the end of the year ๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿฝ❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

Humble beginnings ๐ŸŒš๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ

My new podcast is called ✨ Valentina Speaks ✨

I love the name. I adore it. Val speaks just feels right ๐Ÿ˜Œ❤️

It’s going to be my mission, my vision, my soul, my heart ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–

Where real thoughts meet real change ☕๐Ÿ’•

You’ll mostly find me on Pinterest❤️, Instagram๐Ÿ’–, YouTube ๐Ÿค and maybe TikTok ๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I’m that weird Instagram girl and a fulltime Pinterest nerd ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ’–

Valentina Speaks is for no one yet everyone ๐Ÿคญ❤️

A space for unfiltered thoughts, stories, and quiet honesty ☕๐Ÿ’•

If you ever want to be a guest on my pod my doors are forever open ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿซถ❤️

If you’re shy, I’ll create a Google Form or NGL so you can share anonymously ๐Ÿ“–๐Ÿ’•

And yes… there are surprises coming ๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ’Œ

(Cozy wants๐Ÿ’Œ????) >>>> Stay tuned ๐Ÿ˜Œ❤️

I don't have a launch date yet ๐Ÿคง๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

No pressure....just intention ๐Ÿค

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