I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...

A Letter Written in Bruises๐Ÿฅ€

have you ever wanted something so bad๐Ÿฅ€....

that no matter how much you strive to get it...

it falls into the hands of the lazy and ungrateful ☹️๐Ÿ’”

Suffering so much and just wanting to taste a little freedom...but all the treasures you ever wished for...is freely handed over to freeloaders ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”, who don't even see the need for it and don't appreciate it ☹️๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”


Freedom, power and privilege is always handed to the wrong ppl ๐Ÿ˜ฅ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”....ppl who are self centered, arrogant and selfish ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

Ppl who don't work so they don't see what they have is gold ๐Ÿซ ๐Ÿ’”

Ppl who just sneeze and lands and gold's are handed to them ๐Ÿซ ๐Ÿ’”

The worst part is....you can't even speak up and correct them...cuz it is seen as disrespect ๐Ÿซ ๐Ÿ’”

Born without a golden spoon... forced to sweat and cry before you can even see the golden spoon ๐Ÿซ ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”


Praying endless and wishing for miracles ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

Crying blood but no one to wipe your tears ๐Ÿซ ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

It was never said all our desires would be fulfilled ๐Ÿซ ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”....yet ppl force and get all their desires ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

We who lack resources and help...depend on our strength, luck and miracles ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

What a joy it is to be born in God forsaken world ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿค

I feel stuck...๐Ÿซ ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

Like I'm chained ⛓️ to the ground inside a bottomless pit, no matter how many times I try to climb ๐Ÿชœ back up, my chains ⛓️ keep pulling me down ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

I force, but my efforts are just wasted ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

Wasted years trying to see the light ๐Ÿ•ฏ️.... but my actions did not led me to where I am today ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”....but circumstances ๐Ÿ’”

I'm tired, I'm weak, I'm stuck ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

Who will listen softly to my endless cries ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’”?

Who will hold my hand ❤️‍๐Ÿฉน?

When will my chains ⛓️ be broken ๐Ÿ’”?

Help me....



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