Weightless ⁠♡

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  I stepped out of myself today. I just stood there, a silent ghost, watching my own body move through the heavy ache of living. It broke something inside my mind to see it from the outside to look into my own eyes and feel the absolute, hollow emptiness staring back. I used to hold onto things. I used to have hope. But I watched it drain out of me, until there was nothing left but space. I am so light now. So fragile, like dry autumn leaves. If the wind were to catch me right now, it would carry me away, drift me across the sky, and drop me somewhere so far down that I would never, ever want to come back. There is a strange regret in being this hollow. I watched my body beg for sleep, pleading for the dark to just turn off the noise. But sleep is no longer a requirement for this life. The clock keeps ticking, but the rest never comes. So I roamed. Endless, heavy nights, walking side by side with my lover. Dark after dark, two shadows chasing a phantom. We were hunting for hope, bu...

πŸŽ€: Still Healing πŸŒ±πŸ’•

 Okay so it's me again πŸ˜™❤️

Documenting another piece of my life 🫠❤️‍🩹

So in my older posts it seemed like 

I was going through a lot 

and was having a really tough time which was and is true though 🫠❤️‍🩹

So I fell into depression for almost 6 weeks,

 completely left social media because everything was incredibly draining πŸ˜­πŸ’”

I couldn't think straight and I was constantly comparing myself to everyone πŸ₯²❤️‍🩹

Even though I know it's just aesthetic and filters, it still felt real πŸ« πŸ’”

So I've been doing some self healing accepting my situation and just going with the flow....

rather than stressing out and controlling what I can't πŸ˜“πŸ€§❤️‍🩹

I feel so much lighter like 😭....

I feel so much peace even though my life isn't perfect πŸ™‚...

and I feel like I'm cracking every second πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”

Yet I've learned to embrace the storm πŸ˜™πŸ«ΆπŸ’•

I feel opportunities coming my way, not miracles but opportunities I work and build for myself πŸ₯Ή❤️‍🩹

Life is seriously too short to be stressed... trust me I've learned it the hard way 🫠πŸ₯²❤️‍🩹

 Even though not everything is perfect and in order.... I'm glad I wake up with good health, and a peaceful mind πŸ₯Ή❤️‍🩹

I started loving my body more and more πŸ˜™πŸ˜†❤️

No longer comparing myself to the thickness of the world ☹️πŸ˜’πŸ’”

Tiny structure...but tea 😚☕πŸ’•

I'm making it work 🫠🫢❤️

I just want to say a big thank you to the universe for all my hardship, suffering, endless blood of tears and disappointments 🫠🫢❤️

I sailed through and though my life feels cloudy, cold and foggy right now 🌧️🌩️❤️‍🩹

I'm starting to feel the warmth of a bright and vibrant sky ahead of me πŸŒ±πŸ’•

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