I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...
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πŸŽ€: Still Healing πŸŒ±πŸ’•

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 Okay so it's me again πŸ˜™❤️

Documenting another piece of my life 🫠❤️‍🩹

So in my older posts it seemed like 

I was going through a lot 

and was having a really tough time which was and is true though 🫠❤️‍🩹

So I fell into depression for almost 6 weeks,

 completely left social media because everything was incredibly draining πŸ˜­πŸ’”

I couldn't think straight and I was constantly comparing myself to everyone πŸ₯²❤️‍🩹

Even though I know it's just aesthetic and filters, it still felt real πŸ« πŸ’”

So I've been doing some self healing accepting my situation and just going with the flow....

rather than stressing out and controlling what I can't πŸ˜“πŸ€§❤️‍🩹

I feel so much lighter like 😭....

I feel so much peace even though my life isn't perfect πŸ™‚...

and I feel like I'm cracking every second πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ™‚πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”

Yet I've learned to embrace the storm πŸ˜™πŸ«ΆπŸ’•

I feel opportunities coming my way, not miracles but opportunities I work and build for myself πŸ₯Ή❤️‍🩹

Life is seriously too short to be stressed... trust me I've learned it the hard way 🫠πŸ₯²❤️‍🩹

 Even though not everything is perfect and in order.... I'm glad I wake up with good health, and a peaceful mind πŸ₯Ή❤️‍🩹

I started loving my body more and more πŸ˜™πŸ˜†❤️

No longer comparing myself to the thickness of the world ☹️πŸ˜’πŸ’”

Tiny structure...but tea 😚☕πŸ’•

I'm making it work 🫠🫢❤️

I just want to say a big thank you to the universe for all my hardship, suffering, endless blood of tears and disappointments 🫠🫢❤️

I sailed through and though my life feels cloudy, cold and foggy right now 🌧️🌩️❤️‍🩹

I'm starting to feel the warmth of a bright and vibrant sky ahead of me πŸŒ±πŸ’•

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