I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...
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The Night Knows What We Hide🥀💔

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At night we when we go to sleep, we sleep with our burdens,

 sorrows and worries 🥀💔

Nothing but the cold wind blows and the slow clouds in the sky ☁️🤍

I guess sleep is a temporary solution to our problems 🫠💔

When we lay down and drift off to the lands of dreams where it's better than our realities 🫠💔

The night is cold, dark and scary... because someone of us sleep and we never wake up 🫠💔

Others sleep wishing to stay in their dreams forever...but rather wake up to their sorrows and burdens 🥀💔

I personally think it's better to wake up with a beating heart and make the most of life, whether you're going through struggles or not 🥀💔

Because nothing lasts forever.... though it's temporary, the wait is long 😮‍💨😓💔

We have to make the most of our lives, because when life starts taking from us....it even takes our last breath 🩸💔

#latereflections🤎 #healingquietly🥀💔 #nightthoughts💔

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