I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...
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🥀Blood Doesn't Always Mean Love 💔

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So I'd like to clear something really personal off my chest 🫠💔

I honestly thought that family look out for each other

 and any relative of yours.... loves, supports and wants nothing but the best for you ❤️‍🩹

Till I learned to breathe under another roof 💔… 

I always knew borrowed spaces come with their own silences 💔

But I told myself I could handle it… I guess 🫠💔

My living situation has taught me that you can truly never trust anyone. 

Even though the person is my relative...he is still human 💔

A human capable of insulting and verbally abusing and degrading their own blood relative 🫠💔

I have nothing to say, I used to respect and pity my relative....

but going too far to as saying that even an illiterate can do this or that better than me ???

Then what do you take me for? ❤️‍🩹

I don't mind doing chores for you, reducing myself to your maid, doing this and that for you 💔

I don't mind because I did it out of love🙁...but you took me for another piece of flesh just wanting a place to lay my head 🥲❤️‍🩹.

Circumstances has led me to where I am today but I know I'll surely overcome it 🫠💔

The sleepless nights, the late night cries, the overwhelming hunger and thirst....I know will come to an end ❤️‍🩹

Your empty words mean nothing to me and they won't break me.... cuz I won't let someone who has no value in my life, define my worth 😪❤️‍🩹

I'm not going to say anything...but just know that the love and respect ...

I had for you is gradually fading away and I will never accept you as my own blood who cared for me 💔

I just see pure ugly hypocrisy 🖤

#healingslowly #tiredsoul 💔



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  1. Sun GodOctober 16, 2025 at 7:26 AM

    Oh I know how you feel, I used to be in that situation till I worked and left🥺🫂

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