Weightless ⁠♡

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  I stepped out of myself today. I just stood there, a silent ghost, watching my own body move through the heavy ache of living. It broke something inside my mind to see it from the outside to look into my own eyes and feel the absolute, hollow emptiness staring back. I used to hold onto things. I used to have hope. But I watched it drain out of me, until there was nothing left but space. I am so light now. So fragile, like dry autumn leaves. If the wind were to catch me right now, it would carry me away, drift me across the sky, and drop me somewhere so far down that I would never, ever want to come back. There is a strange regret in being this hollow. I watched my body beg for sleep, pleading for the dark to just turn off the noise. But sleep is no longer a requirement for this life. The clock keeps ticking, but the rest never comes. So I roamed. Endless, heavy nights, walking side by side with my lover. Dark after dark, two shadows chasing a phantom. We were hunting for hope, bu...

Running Out of Time in My 20s???

 

So like I saw a video that said, "no one is more stressed than a girl in her 20's who thinks she's running out of time" . And I don't know why 🫠,

 but this hit me so hard 😞💔

I really do feel like I'm indeed running out of time and if I don't get things done at this stage of my life 🥺.... 

I can never get it back 😥❤️‍🩹

Which is true in a very scary way 😞💔. 

I'm tired of waiting and I want to start building my life 🥺, I do feel like I'm rushing a bit, 

but I don't really know 🥴❤️‍🩹

I've leaved my whole life with perfectionism controlling me and it has gotten me no where though 🫠🫠🫠💔

But all I can say is, those who want don't get, and those who don't want get 😞🫠❤️‍🩹

I'm going to start putting myself out there😥🫠❤️‍🩹. One step at a time ❤️‍🩹.

 I'm not going to force vibes❤️‍🩹. I'm just going to be me 🫰💕

#becomingme❤️‍🩹 #selfgrowth🌱 #20sdiary🦢💕



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