I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...
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The Day My Complaints Felt Small: Black Wednesday ♡

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I honestly thought I was just 

having a bad day today๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ’”. 

I went to the office this morning to get my card and

 ended up waiting for almost six hours from 8 a.m. to 3 p.m. 

Like I was left at awaiting like I was refugee ๐Ÿฅฒ๐Ÿ’”. 

I was tired, annoyed, and convinced that I have the worst luck ever ๐Ÿคง๐Ÿ˜“❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

But when I got home, I realized my “bad day” was nothing compared๐Ÿ‘€ to what was really happening. 

My country is literally in pain and shock ๐Ÿค•๐Ÿ’€❤️‍๐Ÿฉน . Like I feel so confused and like shocked ๐Ÿ’”. 

Our president was supposed to go for a meeting but he sent some people to represent him... because I think he was busy ๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿซ ❤️‍๐Ÿฉน.

 Then around 12:00, news broke out that the helicopter they took has crushed and they have literally burnt to ashes ❤️‍๐Ÿฉน. 

They've burnt so much that they can't be recognised ๐Ÿ˜”๐Ÿ’”

Like I don't know how to process this ๐Ÿ˜ฎ‍๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ’”... This is truly unbelievable and overwhelming.

 I feel so bad for the president right now ๐Ÿ™, no one even know where he is.

 Like I'm sure he'll be seriously damaged like emotionally, mentally and physically ๐Ÿ’”. 

Like he would be thinking that he would have died and he'll literally feel responsible for their death ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ–ค. 

I feel heartbroken for their families and close relatives ๐Ÿ˜“๐Ÿ’”.

 Like I'm honestly speechless....

I'm out of words 

The darker the night, the brighter the stars....the deeper the grief the closer is God ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

The earth has no sorrow ๐Ÿ–ค heaven cannot heal๐Ÿคฒ๐Ÿ•Š️


To live in the hearts, we live behind is not to die ๐Ÿ˜ฎ‍๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”.

We live everything God, may God give us strength to this meaningless life ๐ŸŒ‘๐Ÿ–ค

#RIP๐Ÿฅ€ #STRENGHINGOD๐Ÿ–ค #SOULSUNHEARD๐Ÿซ ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”


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