I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...
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How Do You Heal From Something Like This?: We Woke Up To A Nightmare ๐Ÿ˜“๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

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 Day one after the tragic helicopter incident,
 it hasn't even been 24hrs 

since it happened, today is so cold and cloudy.... literally, just little drops of rain from the sky. 

 I don't know where to start ๐Ÿ™, this is truly one of the most unexpected, shocking, painful unforgivable deaths ever ๐Ÿ˜“๐Ÿ’”. 

I don't get it, I don't understand it and I am so god damn confused like ๐Ÿ˜ฎ‍๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿคง❤️‍๐Ÿฉน

...what hurts me the most is these poor lost souls will have so many regrets 

They'll be thinking to themselves, questioning everything ๐Ÿ–ค๐Ÿฅ€

Their lives seriously just flashed before their eyes, and the families of these people will never be the same. 

I'm so heartbroken ๐Ÿ’” and I feel so deeply for them ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ•Š️๐Ÿ–ค

Death is a real scary thing and sometimes we forgot that it's always hiding around, ready to strike at anytime.

 I guess we better take the most we can from life ๐Ÿ˜ฟ, cuz when life starts taking back....it even takes your last breath ๐Ÿซ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

Are we fully in control of our lives ๐Ÿ˜ฟ...when our lives can be taken at anytime.

 I'm speechless I won't lie, I don't know when I'm ever gonna heal from this ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

If I don't know when I'll heal, what of the family if these lost souls ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ˜“๐Ÿ’”

This is truly a dark day for those who truly love these poor souls ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”


They've been burnt to ashes with no remains ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’”

Their death is truly truly painful...

They say everything happens for a reason... sometimes I wish we knew that reason ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’”


#...๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ’” #8lostsouls


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