I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...

Family Drama A Blessing And A Test ♡


 We all have siblings,
 and they can drive us really crazy. 

Sometimes they’re annoying, unbearable, and all kinds of shit.

 But at the end of the day,

 they’re family and we still love and cherish them.

But sometimes they can be so unbearably annoying that you don’t even know what to do or say. 

They mess with your mood and thoughts, 

leaving you overwhelmed and emotionally, mentally drained 🥀💔.

Some people fight back and argue with their siblings, which only leads to cracks or even breaks in their relationship.

Others ignore each other and never speak until one finally lets go of their pride and apologizes… 

and we all know how strong pride can be 😐🥀💔.

Some try to mend and fix the relationship in spite of everything. 

I’ve seen so many situations where one sibling loves the other so much, despite their ugly personality and character,

 they still manage to go above and beyond for them showing up even though they know the other person wouldn’t do the same.

And I’ve also seen so many people regret drifting apart from their siblings.

 But by the time they realize it… it’s too late, and they become a mistake for someone else to learn from ❤️‍🩹.

I don’t want to live a life with pain and regret in my heart 🥀.

I don’t want to be that mistake someone has to learn from. But it’s really difficult to heal and let go when someone you love acts so unbearable.

I can put myself in their shoes, but I’ll never truly know their thoughts or perspective🫠💔

We’re human, and no one is perfect… so maybe I’m also unbearable to them

 but they still choose to show up and love me just the way I am.

And I owe them that same love and feeling they’ve shown me.

And maybe they don’t want to love me, even though I might be unbearable to them 

but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t show love and empathy.


Because above all, love prevails. It might take some time to process and heal 🥀❤️‍🩹.


I’d rather go through a lifetime of healing and learning how to let go… than go through life with pain and regret 🫠🥀💔.

#AnnoyingButILoveYou🥀❤️‍🩹 #DailyLife😮‍💨

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