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  I stepped out of myself today. I just stood there, a silent ghost, watching my own body move through the heavy ache of living. It broke something inside my mind to see it from the outside to look into my own eyes and feel the absolute, hollow emptiness staring back. I used to hold onto things. I used to have hope. But I watched it drain out of me, until there was nothing left but space. I am so light now. So fragile, like dry autumn leaves. If the wind were to catch me right now, it would carry me away, drift me across the sky, and drop me somewhere so far down that I would never, ever want to come back. There is a strange regret in being this hollow. I watched my body beg for sleep, pleading for the dark to just turn off the noise. But sleep is no longer a requirement for this life. The clock keeps ticking, but the rest never comes. So I roamed. Endless, heavy nights, walking side by side with my lover. Dark after dark, two shadows chasing a phantom. We were hunting for hope, bu...

Family Drama A Blessing And A Test ♡


 We all have siblings,
 and they can drive us really crazy. 

Sometimes they’re annoying, unbearable, and all kinds of shit.

 But at the end of the day,

 they’re family and we still love and cherish them.

But sometimes they can be so unbearably annoying that you don’t even know what to do or say. 

They mess with your mood and thoughts, 

leaving you overwhelmed and emotionally, mentally drained 🥀💔.

Some people fight back and argue with their siblings, which only leads to cracks or even breaks in their relationship.

Others ignore each other and never speak until one finally lets go of their pride and apologizes… 

and we all know how strong pride can be 😐🥀💔.

Some try to mend and fix the relationship in spite of everything. 

I’ve seen so many situations where one sibling loves the other so much, despite their ugly personality and character,

 they still manage to go above and beyond for them showing up even though they know the other person wouldn’t do the same.

And I’ve also seen so many people regret drifting apart from their siblings.

 But by the time they realize it… it’s too late, and they become a mistake for someone else to learn from ❤️‍🩹.

I don’t want to live a life with pain and regret in my heart 🥀.

I don’t want to be that mistake someone has to learn from. But it’s really difficult to heal and let go when someone you love acts so unbearable.

I can put myself in their shoes, but I’ll never truly know their thoughts or perspective🫠💔

We’re human, and no one is perfect… so maybe I’m also unbearable to them

 but they still choose to show up and love me just the way I am.

And I owe them that same love and feeling they’ve shown me.

And maybe they don’t want to love me, even though I might be unbearable to them 

but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t show love and empathy.


Because above all, love prevails. It might take some time to process and heal 🥀❤️‍🩹.


I’d rather go through a lifetime of healing and learning how to let go… than go through life with pain and regret 🫠🥀💔.

#AnnoyingButILoveYou🥀❤️‍🩹 #DailyLife😮‍💨

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