Weightless ⁠♡

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  I stepped out of myself today. I just stood there, a silent ghost, watching my own body move through the heavy ache of living. It broke something inside my mind to see it from the outside to look into my own eyes and feel the absolute, hollow emptiness staring back. I used to hold onto things. I used to have hope. But I watched it drain out of me, until there was nothing left but space. I am so light now. So fragile, like dry autumn leaves. If the wind were to catch me right now, it would carry me away, drift me across the sky, and drop me somewhere so far down that I would never, ever want to come back. There is a strange regret in being this hollow. I watched my body beg for sleep, pleading for the dark to just turn off the noise. But sleep is no longer a requirement for this life. The clock keeps ticking, but the rest never comes. So I roamed. Endless, heavy nights, walking side by side with my lover. Dark after dark, two shadows chasing a phantom. We were hunting for hope, bu...

I Took Life for Granted And Now I Regret It

I'm not gonna lie, 2025 has literally been one of the 

fastest years of my whole life. 

It feels like just yesterday was New Year's, and today it's July.

 I can't stress enough how strange and scary that is. Life is moving so fast, I can't handle it like, for real.

Ever since this year began, I've just been counting the days and nights.

 Anytime I open my eyes, it's day, and before I realize it, it's nighttime.

 It's currently 20:39 right now... but it was 10:00 AM two minutes ago. 

This is honestly scary for me.

You know, life moves so fast, but we just spend our days and time sweating over the little stuff. 

We worry, we complain and honestly, it's normal to do that. But sometimes I wish that instead of comparing,

 wishing, and worrying... we could just take our time and live in the moment.

For one day, let’s just slow down and admire the beauty around us.

 Let’s enjoy every single moment without taking it for granted.

I personally took my teen years for granted, and now I sit here every day... 

wishing I could go back and enjoy every single moment, really live that particular moment without thinking of tomorrow.

I wish I could go back in time, change some things, and take back some stuff I said.

 But it's too late. I sit here with my heart full of grief and remorse.

But still, I'm grateful for everything that happened to me and for the moments I took for granted...

because now, it’s shaped me into the person I am today. 

It has truly shifted my mindset.

I'm grateful for all the experiences I had and even the ones I didn't get to feel.

From now onwards, I'm going to live my life with true intention. 

I'm gonna be intentional about everything I do now, and I’m going to take my time to enjoy and stay in the moment while it lasts

....because 8 years from now, I don’t want to look back and feel the way I’m feeling today.

 

.....xoxo ♡

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