I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...

Why I Choose My Peace Over Toxic Family Energy (Even If It Annoys Them)

 So like sometimes some people are truly annoying. I don't know if it's their talent or gift from God. 

Some people think because they're older than you, you have to bow down and respect them and let your life revolve around their needs.

 They expect you to be available 24/7 365days. Which is truly dumb๐Ÿ˜’.

 I have a life and you don't expect my life to revolve around you, when yours doesn't revolve around mine. 

 And the most annoying thing that they'll say is "why is it that the smallest chance you get, you go to your room...to do what???"

Ummmm hello???!!!๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿ‘€...if I wanted to be around you, I wouldn't be rushing to leave your side the smallest chance I get.....

I wouldn't lie just to leave your presence so I can have my peace of mind๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ˜’๐Ÿ’”.

Your aura and energy is toxic and it rekksss of arrogance and pride.... and plus just because you're older doesn't mean you have the right to boss me around and control my every move๐Ÿ™„

Sometimes I wish some people would just....ugh๐Ÿ˜’... disappear into thin air and never to be found.

And I have learnt the extremely hard way, not to let other people's stupidity affect my mental health ๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿ’š

Cuz personally I already have so many problems and headaches to deal with so I'm not in the mood to add another headache.

Even if I was paid to serve.... I'd quit before the first day ends ๐Ÿ˜ญ.... I'm too cute and tiny to be stressed ๐Ÿงธ๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ’•

I'm too emotionally mature ๐Ÿ™„ to be dragged into your chaotic energy ๐Ÿšฎ๐Ÿ’”

So if I'm always in my room....trust me, I'm protecting my peace not ignoring yours๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ’•






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