I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...

Disappointed by Someone You Trusted? Here’s What I Learned About Hurt And Healing

 Lately, I've been feeling off 🥲💔 

Like meh😑, like the kind of "meh" where you're confused and your mind keeps replaying moments like a broken record 🙄💔

I was involved in a normal not so rare average situation, that left me disappointed ☹️, emotionally drained 😔 and just.....done😒💔

You ever meet people who just can't take responsibility for their actions😤??

They know what they're doing is wrong 😒, they know 😐, they're very much aware 😕. 

But instead of owning up and saying "I'm sorry 😐" they go full olympic mode and jump to blame someone else 😠.

It's actually very annoying, it's unfair and it's just giving 🖤 poor character vibes 🖤

And the worst part ?

The consequences of their behaviour don't just affect them....they spill over and affect others too 🫠

And they don't even care.

No guilt. No pause. No reflection 

Just bad vibes and bold disrespect 🙄😒

Then there's that other kind of hurt....

The one that comes from people you genuinely trusted🥺.  

People you looked up to🥺.  

People you believed would be there for you in your moment of need🥺.  

And then? Boom. Disappointment😵‍💫. Shattered trust🤧. Cold behavior that stings worse than silence😳.

It's a special kind of heartbreak when someone you saw as kind🥹 and dependable🥹 turns out to be careless with your pain.  

It messes with your head😵. And your heart🤒.  

Like… how can someone you believed in just leave you to figure things out alone?

I know, I know — we’re told not to expect too much from people🤥💔

 Yes we were told humans are flawed🤥💔

We were told trust is risky🤥💔

But honestly? That doesn’t make the pain any less real🤧.  

It still hurts when people choose indifference over compassion😕.  

When they choose pride over accountability😕.  

When they choose themselves at the expense of others — without a second thought😥💔. 

I swear, you'll never know someone's true personality until you find yourself wanted 🥲💔...and that's no lie 🤥 💔 

So I learnt the not so surprising way not to expect too much from people😮‍💨💔

And for the people who keep throwing their bad character around like confetti?

 I pray they meet a situation that truly humbles them deeply… and teaches them what their actions actually cost others👀😐.

Because kindness matters❤️.  

Character matters❤️.  

And so does owning your mistakes❤️.

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