I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...
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The Day a Stranger Stood Up for Me: A Story of Kindness in School

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So like… I kinda-sorta broke a school rule today ๐Ÿ˜Œ  

Nothing that serious, but technically undergraduates aren’t allowed in the graduate library ๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ’€  

But the regular library was FULL and I had to find peace ๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ“š✨  

So I gently snuck in and sat quietly like a soft breeze ๐ŸŒš  

Right next to a graduate student who noticed me, but didn’t snitch  instead, she asked if I was comfy ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’—  

Yes ma’am, I was ๐Ÿ˜Œ๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿ’• 

I spent 6 hours napping, studying, scrolling, just living peacefully ๐Ÿง˜‍♀️๐Ÿ“–  

Until one coat-and-tie guy walked in and ruined the vibe ๐Ÿ˜’๐Ÿ’”

He looked me up and down and asked, “Graduate or master’s?” ๐Ÿ’€๐Ÿ˜ญ  

I said undergrad because let’s be real, I’m small and tiny๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ’”  

Then he lectured me about how the guy standing there is doing his master's and I’m in his seat......like for real ๐Ÿ˜‘๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ’”

Sir… no one owns a seat in a free world ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ  

Though there were other under graduates around, he approached only me maybe because I look younger, smaller or out of place ๐Ÿ˜ญ. That’s really rude and unfair ๐Ÿ˜”๐Ÿ’”. 

No one should use someone’s physical appearance or position to intimidate or bully them ๐Ÿ˜ฅ๐Ÿ’”. 

I stood up ๐Ÿฅฒ, embarrassed๐Ÿคง, about to leave๐Ÿ˜ต‍๐Ÿ’ซ…  

Then the graduate girl beside me turned and said, “Ignore him, you’ve been here all day. Don’t go anywhere.” ๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿ’•  

And my heart went soft-soft ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿฅบ❤️

She didn’t have to say anything, but she did.  

She stood up for me.  

Not because I was right, but because I was human ๐Ÿ’•  

She didn’t use her status to make me feel small ๐Ÿฅบ.  

She made me feel seen ๐Ÿซ‚✨  

So yeah, maybe I broke a rule.  

But today, I felt kindness.  

And that made all the difference๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ’—

To my grad bestie I never knew I needed — thank you ๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿ’“  

If everyone protected each other like this, the world would feel a little safer ๐Ÿ’–

Though I know I may never see her again, may God bless her beautiful heart ❤️ ๐Ÿ’Œ. 

I’m truly honored she showed me such respect and kindness without even knowing me.

 In that small moment, she made a big impact ❤️‍๐Ÿ”ฅand I’ll never forget it ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿซถ❤️


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