When Death Passed By Our Door
My cozy space to think out loud and make sense of life in real time. I explore psychology, faith, emotions, identity and everything in between. Not as an expert, but as a girl trying to figure it all out with honesty. If you're tired of vague advice and surface level healing. You're at the right place ♡. If you love journaling, deep talks and figuring life out slowly, you'll feel right at home here ๐ก๐
Still sharing my heartbeats and unfiltered thoughts ๐๐ชน๐
Do you sometimes wish, you could close your eyes and wake up in a different life ๐ฅบ๐
....a life where you feel seen, respected and free๐ฅบ❤๐ฉน
But instead you wake up in a space where you feel like you don't truly belong ๐ซ ๐.....a life where everything you do is met with criticism ๐ข, and every move is watched and judged ๐ช❤๐ฉน
Yes you didn't choose this ๐ช, but circumstances has led you there๐ซ ....
a place where you feel reduced, degraded and emotional drained☹️๐ฅบ๐.
And honestly it hurts ๐ค...it hurts soo much ๐.
People say, "Take it easy'. But how can you take it easy when you're living in an environment that chips away at your peace daily ๐ฅฒ๐?
When you're constantly walking in eggshells ๐ฅ, overthinking every little decision ๐... just to avoid the next explosion ๐ฅ of judgement and criticism ๐ฅบ๐.
You want to scream....you want to cry...you just want someone, anyone to understand your pain๐คง
Even the people who love you can't fix it ๐ช, because thier hands are tied too ⛓️๐.
They're trying, offering reassurance, soft words and hope ๐ฅบ๐.....but sometimes hope just feels like another heavy thing to carry when you're barely holding on๐ซ ❤๐ฉน.
You've tried everything to make the best of it๐
๐ฅ: You've tried adjusting ๐ฅฒ๐
๐ฅ: Tried being strong ๐ฅฒ๐
๐ฅ: Tried to motivate yourself ๐ฅฒ๐
๐ฅ: Tried acting like everything is fine ๐ฅฒ๐
But deep down inside ๐ฅบ
You're tired ๐ฃ
Tired of pretending ๐ฃ
Tired of Pushing down the tears๐ฃ
Tired of being treated like you don't matter ๐ฅบ
And then there's comparison ๐ถ๐ซ
Watching others live freely, while you struggle in silence ๐ค, wishing, hoping, aching for something different ๐ฅบ๐๐.
You know deep down comparison won't fix it, but sometimes.... it's hard not to wonder why me?
What did I do to deserve this?
Still❤๐ฉน....even in this pain, you're trying ๐ฅฒ๐
Even when you feel breaking down⛓๐ฅ, you're still standing ❤๐ฅ
Even when motivation feels pointless ๐ค, you wake up and face another day๐คง๐ฅบ❤๐ฉน
To anyone who relates with this ๐ฅบ๐:
๐️: You're seen
๐️: You're felt
๐️: You're not alone ๐ช๐
This pain won't last forever ๐ซ ❤๐ฉน
But for now, it's okay to admit that it hurts ๐ค๐
You don't have to be okay today ๐๐, you just have to keep breathing ๐
One day, this chapter will just be part of the story ๐ that made you stronger ๐ช❤๐ฅ.
But for now: let yourself feel it❤๐ฉน
You're allowed to be tired ๐ฅบ
You're allowed to not have it all figured out ๐ฅบ❤๐ฉน
You're allowed to be a little broken and still beautiful ❤️
And you're still worthy of love, peace and better days ๐ฑ๐. Even if today doesn't feel like one of them ๐ฅบ๐ฑ๐
Sometimes, just surviving another day with a heart that still hopes .... it's bravery too๐ฅบ❤๐ฉน
Thank you so much for this. ❤️
ReplyDeleteYou're most welcome ๐ฅบ๐
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