Weightless ⁠♡

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  I stepped out of myself today. I just stood there, a silent ghost, watching my own body move through the heavy ache of living. It broke something inside my mind to see it from the outside to look into my own eyes and feel the absolute, hollow emptiness staring back. I used to hold onto things. I used to have hope. But I watched it drain out of me, until there was nothing left but space. I am so light now. So fragile, like dry autumn leaves. If the wind were to catch me right now, it would carry me away, drift me across the sky, and drop me somewhere so far down that I would never, ever want to come back. There is a strange regret in being this hollow. I watched my body beg for sleep, pleading for the dark to just turn off the noise. But sleep is no longer a requirement for this life. The clock keeps ticking, but the rest never comes. So I roamed. Endless, heavy nights, walking side by side with my lover. Dark after dark, two shadows chasing a phantom. We were hunting for hope, bu...
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The One Thing You Need To Hear When Life Feels Unbearable

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Still sharing my heartbeats and unfiltered thoughts ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿชน๐Ÿ’•

Do you sometimes wish, you could close your eyes and wake up in a different life ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’”

....a life where you feel seen, respected and free๐Ÿฅบ❤‍๐Ÿฉน

But instead you wake up in a space where you feel like you don't truly belong ๐Ÿซ ๐Ÿ’”.....a life where everything you do is met with criticism ๐Ÿ˜ข, and every move is watched and judged ๐Ÿ˜ช❤‍๐Ÿฉน

Yes you didn't choose this ๐Ÿ˜ช, but circumstances has led you there๐Ÿซ ....

a place where you feel reduced, degraded and emotional drained☹️๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’”.

And honestly it hurts ๐Ÿค•...it hurts soo much ๐Ÿ˜”.

People say, "Take it easy'. But how can you take it easy when you're living in an environment that chips away at your peace daily ๐Ÿฅฒ๐Ÿ’”?

When you're constantly walking in eggshells ๐Ÿฅ€, overthinking every little decision ๐Ÿ‚... just to avoid the next explosion ๐Ÿ’ฅ of judgement and criticism ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’”.

You want to scream....you want to cry...you just want someone, anyone to understand your pain๐Ÿคง

Even the people who love you can't fix it ๐Ÿ˜ช, because thier hands are tied too ⛓️๐Ÿ”’. 

They're trying, offering reassurance, soft words and hope ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’”.....but sometimes hope just feels like another heavy thing to carry when you're barely holding on๐Ÿซ ❤‍๐Ÿฉน.

You've tried everything to make the best of it๐Ÿ’”

๐Ÿฅ€: You've tried adjusting ๐Ÿฅฒ๐Ÿ’”

๐Ÿฅ€: Tried being strong ๐Ÿฅฒ๐Ÿ’”

๐Ÿฅ€: Tried to motivate yourself ๐Ÿฅฒ๐Ÿ’”

๐Ÿฅ€: Tried acting like everything is fine ๐Ÿฅฒ๐Ÿ’”

But deep down inside ๐Ÿฅบ

You're tired ๐Ÿ˜ฃ

Tired of pretending ๐Ÿ˜ฃ

Tired of Pushing down the tears๐Ÿ˜ฃ

Tired of being treated like you don't matter ๐Ÿฅบ

And then there's comparison ๐Ÿ˜ถ‍๐ŸŒซ

Watching others live freely, while you struggle in silence ๐Ÿค, wishing, hoping, aching for something different ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ‚๐Ÿ’”.

You know deep down comparison won't fix it, but sometimes.... it's hard not to wonder why me?

 What did I do to deserve this?

Still❤‍๐Ÿฉน....even in this pain, you're trying ๐Ÿฅฒ๐Ÿ’”

Even when you feel breaking down⛓‍๐Ÿ’ฅ, you're still standing ❤‍๐Ÿ”ฅ

Even when motivation feels pointless ๐Ÿ–ค, you wake up and face another day๐Ÿคง๐Ÿฅบ❤‍๐Ÿฉน

To anyone who relates with this ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’”:

๐Ÿ•Š️: You're seen

 ๐Ÿ•Š️: You're felt 

๐Ÿ•Š️: You're not alone ๐Ÿ˜ช๐Ÿ’”

This pain won't last forever ๐Ÿซ ❤‍๐Ÿฉน

But for now, it's okay to admit that it hurts ๐Ÿค•๐Ÿ’”

You don't have to be okay today ๐Ÿ˜ž๐Ÿ’”, you just have to keep breathing ๐Ÿ’• 

One day, this chapter will just be part of the story ๐Ÿ“– that made you stronger ๐Ÿ’ช❤‍๐Ÿ”ฅ.

But for now: let yourself feel it❤‍๐Ÿฉน

You're allowed to be tired ๐Ÿฅบ

You're allowed to not have it all figured out ๐Ÿฅบ❤‍๐Ÿฉน

You're allowed to be a little broken and still beautiful ❤️ 

And you're still worthy of love, peace and better days ๐ŸŒฑ๐Ÿ’•. Even if today doesn't feel like one of them ๐Ÿฅบ๐ŸŒฑ๐Ÿ’•

Sometimes, just surviving another day with a heart that still hopes .... it's bravery too๐Ÿฅบ❤‍๐Ÿฉน


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