I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...

When People You Loved Change: How To Let Go Without Losing Yourself

 

Welcome to Moments With Jones🎀💕... My cozy corner where I share my unfiltered thoughts 💯🔥

I learned the hard way that, people change, life moves on and you just have to acknowledge that change

 and love them as they grow or evolve... cuz they're human❤️‍🩹

When I was a kid I was so close to my friends till the extent of taking them as family. 

We spent our days laughing, having fun and goofing off. 

Though it didn't last and we eventually went our separate ways🥲💔, I held on sooo tight to the beautiful, joyful moments we shared and created🤧. 

Many years apart, we finally reunited. I expected the same spark and warmth from our childhood🥹.... I ran to hug them and they hugged back cuz... that's what people do when they're hugged 👀.

But something felt off, they had changed 🥺💔. 

Their vibe was different. Conversations were so hard to make and awkward 😕.

 The warmth I remembered just wasn't there ☹️...and honestly? It broke my heart 😢💔.

They were like total strangers 🥺, and I kept asking myself " Was it real back then?...or did I just hold on to the memories tighter than they did?"

Despite the heartbreak and disappointment 😞💔, I reflected and accepted the fact that people change... and that doesn't make them bad people...it just means they're human 🫠❤‍🩹. 

I realised that just because we shared something beautiful in the past doesn't mean we'll still share it now 🫠...but I decided to love them as they are❤️.

 I believe that if you truly love someone, you have to love the new version of them too💗. 

Even if it's different 🤧, even if it hurts🥺. 

Cuz you don't know what life has done to them... and for all you know they feel the same way about you 💔. 

I kept them alive in my heart.... and they came back different, like strangers. I guess it's okay to be sad, but it doesn't erase what we shared 🥺❤‍🩹.

I miss who we were 🥺💔....

I'm sad we aren't that anymore 🥺💔....

But I still care🥺.... and I still love you all, even as different as you are now🥺🫂❤‍🩹



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