I Thought Leaving Would Feel Like Freedom.

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  After a month, everything seems so normal and dull... as if nothing ever happened. I am happy, but I feel empty. I waited for this for the longest time... three years and counting. I honestly did not like how I left things. It felt rushed. It felt sad. And honestly, if I could go back in time... I would probably do it the same way. I can't help but blame myself for leaving a toxic environment. I was suffering. Scars have been drawn on my body. Unwanted habits have now become normal for me. I feel restless. I am exhausted. I am tired, yet I feel like I don't deserve sleep. Why, though? I only left because I was tired of being exploited. I want to be selfish. I want to put myself first. I have been nothing but a dirty doormat. My mind, soul, and body crave peace and sleep, but I feel like the moment I lay down, I will fall behind. Am I over exaggerating my grief? Or am I trying to convince myself that leaving was the wrong step? I feel lonely. I don't crave people to intera...
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Just Me, No Pressure: Creating For the Love of It.

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Ever felt like you're creating something just for trends, always trying to "get it right" but it gets you nowhere?

J.Moon here still sharing my heartbeats and Unfiltered Thoughts ๐Ÿ’—

For the past 2 years, I've been caught up in the chase - trying to follow trends, do what's "popular" and create things the way I thought it "should" be ๐Ÿฅน.

 I've blogged with pressure in the back of my mind๐Ÿฅฒ, posted content to match what was expected and edited myself to fit into boxes that never really felt like me๐Ÿซ ❤‍๐Ÿฉน.

So I realised something ❤‍๐Ÿฉน..... I've reached the point where I don't want to any of that anymore ๐Ÿ˜”๐Ÿ’”. 

I don't want to create because I have to, or do something because it's trending ๐Ÿ‘€.

 I just want to share what makes me feel joy ๐Ÿ˜Š, peace ๐Ÿ•Š️, softness ๐Ÿฅบ, nostalgia ๐ŸŒฑ and comfort ๐Ÿฅฒ๐Ÿ’–

And that's why I started posting differently ๐Ÿ™‚‍↕. I'm letting go of perfectionism ๐Ÿ˜ that held me back ๐Ÿฅบ and learning to just let it flow๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿ’—.

Not for views๐Ÿฅน...Not for followers๐Ÿฅน

Just for the girl wanting to inspire others with her voice ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿฉท

I realised that creating something without pressure is one of the most healing things you can do ๐ŸŒฑ๐Ÿ’•

It's where your true voice shines through ๐Ÿ”❤️

It isn't about giving up, it's about coming home ๐Ÿก๐Ÿ’•.

So whether you're sharing random photos that make you happy or writing unfiltered posts full of tangled thoughts.... there's nothing wrong with it ๐Ÿซ ❤️‍๐Ÿ”ฅ. 

As long as it makes you happy, it's beautiful and enough ❤️

To anyone else feeling burnt out from chasing trends๐Ÿฅบ:

๐ŸŽ€: You don't have to keep running ๐Ÿ’จ 

๐ŸŽ€: You're allowed to slow down ๐Ÿ˜Œ

๐ŸŽ€: You're allowed to create without a purpose or to challenge anyone ๐Ÿฉต

Because sometimes the most powerful thing you can do, is just be yourself ๐ŸŒธ๐Ÿ’•

Create from the heart ❤️, not for the crowd ๐Ÿ‘ฅ๐Ÿ’”


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